Friday, February 25, 2011

Happy Friday!

Hooray for unexpected days off! Thursday morning, at 5:30 a.m., I got a message from the school that we had a massive power outage and they would send an update if we were to come in later in the day. Well, the update said "no school today due to no power on campus." Woo Hoo! Can you tell I'm trying to tone down my excitement?! True, I'll be a little behind on some things, but I work well under pressure :).

A note about the power outage - we are having some construction work done on campus and I'm pretty sure that has played a part in our outage. The building that I'm in now will be torn down and a nice new one will take it's place. During Spring break, we'll be moved from our offices into some temporary buildings and they'll start on tearing down the old to make way for the new. We're all excited and yet a little apprehensive. And, my co-worker that I've been filling in for (a lot) is having back surgery right after we come back from break. I feel the stress pulling my shoulders up already but the bike riding is helping me keep it in perspective. I can't control the changes but I can control how it affects me. I'm just going to keep calm and carry on.

So, Thursday morning, with the threat of rain in the afternoon, I went for my bike ride. It was a little cloudy and very windy. I worked up a good sweat fighting the wind. Then I took Sydney for a walk. I've been taking her for a walk after I get back from riding. She needs a lifestyle change, too. I took her to the vet last week (that's her in the picture buckled up for safety) for a check up and some shots and was told she needed to lose a few pounds. She loves going for walks and it motivates me to get out there and walk more so it's a win-win thing. I'm planning on repeating the ride and walk today, too.

It never did really rain yesterday, except for a few sprinkles but I'm glad I got my ride in early. I've been doing good with my food. I'm still doing low carb, but I've had to count my calories and watch my portions. I tend to think that since it's low carb that I can have as much as I want. Hah. What was I thinking? I'm also logging what I eat, which I don't like because I get a little obsessive, but I MUST be strict with myself for a while until it becomes habit again.

So glad it's Friday and I am so happy to have the day off. Hope you have an awesome weekend!

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Hope Restored - Thanks!

Let me first say thank you for the wonderful support I received yesterday after my depressing post. It meant so much to me. Seriously, it helped me more than you can imagine. I began to feel better immediately after reading your comments. Hope restored.

When I got home yesterday, I took the dogs out and then put some air in my tires and went for a short ride. I hadn't been on the bike since January 7th so I took it slow and easy. When I got home, I felt great. Riding seems to be the best exercise for getting me out of the dumps. And what great spring weather we're having down here! It's awesome.

Anyway, just wanted to say thanks for being there. I'm taking the advice you shared to heart and focus on one meal at a time, pick myself up and dust myself off and get back on the wagon, think positive, give up "dieting" for lifestyle changes, and know that this too shall pass.

Wagons, ho!

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Losing Hope

That's not what I expected of myself, but that seems to be where I am with my weightloss. I've been trying to stick with my diet for a few weeks now and lately I just can't do it. I'm very upset with myself, too. I'm going on a trip in April and had hoped to lose twenty pounds by then. Now, I'd be surprised if I lose five.

I know it's all about what you put into it that counts. I always feel like I'm ready to give it 100%. Then, out of the blue, I just cave in and eat stuff. I'm beginning to feel like I'll never be able to stick to a diet again. I've been dieting since my teens. All the time, year after year, my thoughts are about what I can and cannot eat. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of my inability to lose weight.

Sorry, this post is down and out. I'm depressed about it and feeling hopeless. I feel fatter than I've ever felt before. Maybe it's just time to give up. I don't even feel like blogging anymore.

Friday, February 4, 2011

Snow Day - sans snow

Yesterday, we were all abuzz here in Houston about the possibility of 1 to 3 inches of snow falling on our beloved city. The decision was made at school Thursday that we would be closed today. That made everyone happy! (Doesn't take much) I woke up at 6:30 this morning, looked out the window and snow. What a let down.

All we got was a lot of ice. Black ice (not to be confused with the once abundant black gold in these here parts) all over the roads, freeways, driveways, etc. So many accidents reported around town. Some fatal. Its too dangerous out there people. Stay home if you can.

My mom decided to make vegetable soup last night. I was excited about it at first, then found out what was in it - cream style corn, white potatoes, carrots. Normally I'd be okay with that, but since I'm doing low carb, I was a little upset. I kept it to myself though and ate a bowl. It was really good, too. I didn't have any cornbread with it, but I know it was still a lot of carbs.

I'm going to clean house today and get it over with. I usually clean on Saturday, but tomorrow is supposed to be in the low 50's and sunny. Hoorah. Now I just need to stop munching. This cold weather makes me hungry.

Hope you're keeping warm and toasty and safe.