bright and cheery.
Now that my son is an adult, there seems to be no interest in putting up a tree or decorating. I'm feeling the "bah-humbugs" setting in. I don't understand how a kid who used to get so excited can now act as if the holiday isn't a holiday at all. The way I feel right now, I'd like to spend my christmas money on a plane ticket to some place I want to go. By myself. With nobody to spread a lack of holiday cheer.
I havent' exercised this week. More wintery weather here in Houston has me down, too. I used to be able to tolerate a little cold weather but lately, I just don' like it. Of course, I've been coming down with something all week. A sinus/cold kind of something that makes my head hurt and I've been sneezing and feeling chilled. My temp yesterday was 94.5! I'm running an anti-fever, lol. I usually have a temp of 97.something, a side effect of a blown out thyroid. Apparently, when your temp is low it feels just like a fever - chills, hot - repeat.
Since I've been feeling under the weather (and grinch-like) I've been eating poorly, not drinking enough water (I KNOW. ME?!!), and just plain not motivated to do anything about it. Sorry to blog such a downer post, but it is what it is. I hope to climb out of this hole soon. Two years ago we had a very bad family-drama-crap-out at christmas and now every year is a reminder that people may not be who you think they are. They have the ability to change into greedy @$$ selfish types. They can walk out on you and never look back.
I'm dreaming of a christmas, just like the ones we used to have. This, too, shall pass. I'm just in a little funk. I'm going to rent a movie. A funny one. Take care.