Friday, December 11, 2009

'Tis the Season


I miss the Christmas we used to have when my kiddo was young. It was exciting and we couldn't wait to put up the tree and decorate. Where ever we lived our home always reflected how we felt about the Christmas season - bright and cheery.

Now that my son is an adult, there seems to be no interest in putting up a tree or decorating. I'm feeling the "bah-humbugs" setting in. I don't understand how a kid who used to get so excited can now act as if the holiday isn't a holiday at all. The way I feel right now, I'd like to spend my christmas money on a plane ticket to some place I want to go. By myself. With nobody to spread a lack of holiday cheer.

I havent' exercised this week. More wintery weather here in Houston has me down, too. I used to be able to tolerate a little cold weather but lately, I just don' like it. Of course, I've been coming down with something all week. A sinus/cold kind of something that makes my head hurt and I've been sneezing and feeling chilled. My temp yesterday was 94.5! I'm running an anti-fever, lol. I usually have a temp of 97.something, a side effect of a blown out thyroid. Apparently, when your temp is low it feels just like a fever - chills, hot - repeat.

Since I've been feeling under the weather (and grinch-like) I've been eating poorly, not drinking enough water (I KNOW. ME?!!), and just plain not motivated to do anything about it. Sorry to blog such a downer post, but it is what it is. I hope to climb out of this hole soon. Two years ago we had a very bad family-drama-crap-out at christmas and now every year is a reminder that people may not be who you think they are. They have the ability to change into greedy @$$ selfish types. They can walk out on you and never look back.

I'm dreaming of a christmas, just like the ones we used to have.  This, too, shall pass. I'm just in a little funk. I'm going to rent a movie. A funny one. Take care.

9 comments:

  1. Remember, you have an open invitation to Newfoundland! Though Newfoundlander's are not the type to leave you alone. ;)
    I am feeling overwhelmed by Christmas this year. It feels like everything is on "fast forward".
    I hope you find a movie that makes you feel better!
    xo
    Andrea

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  2. I hope you feel better soon!
    We are having cold weather here in central Texas and I don't like it! Let's hope it passes soon so both of us can get outside to workout!

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  3. Cold weather and bad holiday memories can bring out the funk in all of us. Good for you for seeing it for what it is and taking steps to get through it!

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  4. Isn't it interesting how much our mood and outlook affects our eating and exercising habits? Sometimes I think it is just getting back over that hump in the beginning that is most difficult.

    I am an adult child in my parents' home, and I know how the holidays have changed over the years since I have grown up. However, we are starting to make some new, adult traditions that everyone can enjoy, and it seems to be making a difference.

    Have a wonderful weekend :-)

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  5. Hi Tena,
    I was awarded a Kreativ Blog Award and had to nominate 7 blogs for the same. You are one.
    http://crownology.blogspot.com/2009/12/kreativ-blog-award.html
    xo
    Andrea

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  6. Hope you found a great movie that made you laugh!

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  7. Hi Tena - This is my first visit to your blog...I found it via Tammy's and was glad to see someone else is feeling a bit Grinchy and anti-spirited. All 3 of my grown kids are coming home for the holiday (one is already here), but I'm still funky. I'm recovering from knee arthroscopy and it's keeping me from being able to do much of anything. Harummpphh. As you noted, this too shall pass. It always does. I'm just trying to not self destruct before the passage! I'm going to browse your archive to catch - looks like good stuff.

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  8. I am right there with you. Wishing I could just fast forward through it all!

    Hang in there Tena!

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  9. This year, we are not spending any money on family...due to the economy and the fact that so many people are suffering, we are all giving the money we would normally have spent on stupid presents to charity. When I brought up the idea to my family, I initially thought they would not like it, but I was wrong.

    I have to tell you...this is the first Christmas where I'm not totally stressed out. And I feel like I'm doing something good for my community.

    Take care, Tena, this too shall pass. And drink your water!!!!

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