I really didn't mean to wait so long to post. I read blogs everyday and think I've got something to say and then "poof," nothin. This creative dry spell is due in part to my total lack of making a conscious effort to LOSE WEIGHT! I have just not been at it. I have not been measuring my food, tally-ing my calories, or tracking carbs. I have just been eating like a person who has nothing to lose. Not a person trying to gain, just a person maintaining.
Hello? Who am I fooling? Am I happy at 257? No. I am not happy at 257, I want to be more like 170, thank you very much. I weighed myself today and I'm up 2lbs, which, if you knew my history, you'd think I was lying. I mean, I can gain weight just smelling food. I'm grateful for not having put on 10 lbs! Two I can take right off, but if I keep going, it will be 10.
Something has changed though with how I feel about food. I've gone to the store twice this last week, fully intending to get binge food. You know, a package of oreos, or fig newtons. Then eat the entire package while driving home. Crumbs all over my blouse and collecting in the corners of my mouth. Gah. Sounds disgusting, doesn't it?
I didn't get binge foods. I got some cute little bunny cookies in a box that claim to be all natural with "no icky additives or pesky preservatives!" Their called Annie's Bunny Graham Friends honey, chocolate & chocolate chip. How can you binge on something that pure? And they are so cute. They are so good and wholesome with a little taste of sweet that just hit the spot. (geez, I'm sounding like a commercial)
So after a few cute little bunnies, I went for a bike ride. I haven't been out riding in about 3 weeks. I thought for sure my butt would hurt and my lungs would fold. But I did just fine. It felt good to get back in the saddle. It felt good to see that I'm changing how I feel about food and it's place in my world. This is where blogging has gotten me. This is how finding support in blogs is life changing.
Keep blogging. Keep reaching out and reaching in till you find what makes it all work. And don't forget to drink your water!
ps I forgot to mention, Happy Earth Day! And, you can get a free "Be Green" sticker from Annie's site here! How cool is that?!