I went to a funeral today for a co-workers' mother. I didn't know her mother but I went in support of my friend. She has been through so much with her family, more than I need to go into here, but just know she's had a tough road lately.
The service was really nice and the woman was spoken of with love and fondness. They talked about how she lived her life and how they thought of her as being strong and vibrant. They had pictures of her at many different ages and she looked like she enjoyed her life.
This got me to thinking about how I hate having my picture taken now. Since I've been overweight, I don't like what I see when I do see a picture of me. So, there aren't many pictures of me from the last, oh, I'd say, 15 years. I've taken lots of pictures of places and things and family. But in most of those pictures you don't see me at all.
I got to thinking that this might not be fair to my family. They might want to see pictures of me someday. And even though I don't look the way I want to, this is how I look today. The way my family sees me everyday is who I am right now. I know they love me just the way I am so maybe I shouldn't leave myself out of pictures just because I can't bare it.
It was sad today but I got the feeling that the woman who passed away was loved despite all her warts and freckles. Something I needed to witness today so that I can realize how short life is. And how someday we will all be remembered. I don't want to be remembered for always being unhappy with myself. I want to be remembered for my adventurous spirit. I want to be seen living my life and not afraid to be in the picture.
Lets look at ourselves the way our loved ones see us and know that they are not wrong. We are worthy of their love. We need to be in the picture!
Take care. Take out some old photos and look at who your family loves. And drink your water!