Yesterday I was off work for Prez's Day and I think I spent the entire day trying to talk myself out of going for the cake, AGAIN. Gahhhh. Why do I let something like this get such a hold on me?
I started the day out okay. Told myself I was over the cake incident and I didn't feel bad about myself for eating it. It's just that my "head" keeps telling me something sweet would be nice. The constant nagging in my head is getting old. When does the desire to eat crap stop? I really like eating healthy but when I fall off the wagon my body doesn't want to get back on. Struggling with myself is exhausting and makes me want to throw in the towel.
I think I mentioned that I'm trying out a program here at work for "lifestyle changes" to lose weight. It advocates that eating only when you are hungry means you can eat whatever you are hungry for. Scuse me? So if I'm never hungry for spinach or green beans, I should just not eat them? They say to drink a mixture of orange juice and water (1:7 ratio) throughout the day for hydration. And it will keep your blood sugar leveled to keep hunger at bay. That part does help but I don't think eating only what I want is going to work for me. You are supposed to stop eating when you are comfortable and remind yourself that your stomach only holds about a cup of chewed food.
I know this is going to take a long time to lose this weight and change my habits. Eating the cake this weekend really set me back mentally. Am I a sugar-holic? Not to be trusted with sweets? Do they make serotonin in a pill? Do I need to live in a cave?
Today is a toughy for me. Hope it's a good one for you. Drink that water!