I love the wind. I love to feel it on my face. I love it when my hair blows all over my head. Well, that part not so much when I'm on my way to work!
It's very windy right now and riding my bike in the wind is a real challenge. I don't care. I just pedal harder. My legs are screaming at me tonight but I know that means I had a good work-out.
I've been so motivated and revved to stay on track but now fear is starting to sneak up on me. You know how you'll be doin' so well, completely motivated and it seems like nothing can knock you off this perpetual forward spin you're in? But you know lurking out there somewhere, is that part of you that feeds your doubts and tells you "you won't be sticking to this much longer." I'm scared. I've lost and gained and lost and gained so many times and that familiar fear of failure is creeping in.
I know this time I'm focusing more on totally changing my lifestyle, so I think this feeling will pass. But still, I worry. This is what I want, isn't it? I mean I'm losing it for me this time. Not for some one else. Not to make some one else happy but to make me happy. So I can be the me I see myself as. I will overcome this fear and I will be me. I will.
It's late and I need to turn this light out. Hope Monday was good to you and Tuesday will be even better. Don't forget to drink your water!