Monday, February 9, 2009

Spring is in the air!

I love the wind. I love to feel it on my face. I love it when my hair blows all over my head. Well, that part not so much when I'm on my way to work!
It's very windy right now and riding my bike in the wind is a real challenge. I don't care. I just pedal harder. My legs are screaming at me tonight but I know that means I had a good work-out.
I've been so motivated and revved to stay on track but now fear is starting to sneak up on me. You know how you'll be doin' so well, completely motivated and it seems like nothing can knock you off this perpetual forward spin you're in? But you know lurking out there somewhere, is that part of you that feeds your doubts and tells you "you won't be sticking to this much longer." I'm scared. I've lost and gained and lost and gained so many times and that familiar fear of failure is creeping in.
I know this time I'm focusing more on totally changing my lifestyle, so I think this feeling will pass. But still, I worry. This is what I want, isn't it? I mean I'm losing it for me this time. Not for some one else. Not to make some one else happy but to make me happy. So I can be the me I see myself as. I will overcome this fear and I will be me. I will.
It's late and I need to turn this light out. Hope Monday was good to you and Tuesday will be even better. Don't forget to drink your water!


  1. ok. may we try to banish the fear? make a longlong list --as many things as you can think of---which are making you fearful?

    and then examine and refute?

    DONT FRET JUST KEEP MOVING FORWARD and remember worrying (fearing?) is praying for what you do not want!


  2. You can do this and will. Lecture over :-)! MizFit is so right about fear.
    After going through this time and again I have started looking at this not with fear but more like a relationship. There are highs and lows in the feelings along the way. Where ever it is along the swings there is no walking away, it's this body or nothing ;-). Just love the highs and figure work through the lows it will swing back at some point.
    Happy Tuesday.

  3. I don't know if you follow Leo over at, but he has some good stuff to say today about facing fears.

    Think in abundance, not in lack. You are doing great.

  4. Hard to add to the wonderful advice your other commentors have given.

    Just hang in there and keep your eye on the prize...a wonderfully healthier YOU.

  5. You will conquer your fears, you already are by blogging about it.
    I love the wind, it's one of my favorite sounds. :-)

  6. I have that voice too, but I told him that this time I'm in control and I will defend my new lifestyle like a mama bear defends her cub!

    You can do this. And you know what, even if you stumble, you'll still be better off than you were before because you've tasted success and you have us, who will nudge you until you get back up and continue on your path to health. (Phew, that was a long sentence.)

  7. you'll do great. that feeling will pass- you just have to keep on doing exactly what you are doing, and youll be fine!

    Kelly Turner