This afternoon I asked myself "do you really care if you lose weight, or not?"
I paused and then answered "yes, I really care and I really want to lose more weight." I've worked hard at making changes and I don't want to let a little chocolate cake get the best of me (or the worst of me depending on how you look at it). I've been liking that my pants are looser and my bra is slipping up in the back.
I did have a turkey and Swiss cheese on crescent today for lunch. For most that's not a bad thing but I try to stay away from white breads. I really wanted it so rather than have my body throw another tantrum, I gave in.
This program that I've been trying out has me eating very little calories day to day. My energy level for the last few days has been lacking and riding my bike has felt like a chore. The ride today was great. I felt re-charged and full of energy. I rode for 45 minutes and average speed was 10.9 mph. Of course when I got off the bike, I felt the pain in my thighs but during the ride it felt great. Maybe the sandwich was what I needed to give me a boost.
Anyway, I'm feeling like the fog is lifting and I see my goal again. The important thing is that this time I didn't hate myself or feel like a failure. I felt like a person who faced a tough time and got over it.
Have a great evening and love the one your with, even if it's just you.
Glad to hear the fog lifted for you! If you don't mind me asking what plan are you following that's so low on calories??
ReplyDeleteSo glad to hear the fog is lifting.. It must be a large 'weather front' as my fog seems to have lifted too ; )
ReplyDeleteMine too. I feel like today was a turning point for me.
ReplyDeleteHave I told you lately how much I enjoy your blog?
I hope to get my bike in a week or two. :)
woot. I like it... great post Tena, thank you for putting those thoughts out there.
ReplyDeleteI care too.
:)
I call meals like the turkey sandwich on white, "splurge-ettes". They're not really bad for you, and though they probably should be avoided *most* of the time, having them now and then feels like a real treat. Good instincts on your part!
ReplyDeleteI think we have to accept that we'll go through the occasional dip - even the most motivated ones among us. Going through the dip is not failure. Giving up is failure! So you have nothing to be ashamed or upset about. Go for it, girl!
ReplyDeleteTena, I caught up a few on your recent posts: Happy belated to your young man -what a great picture; good for you on the scale love; you(h)ate cake; and the fog has lifted. Yay! It's been more than foggy on the west coast. It's been zero visibility but it's improving. I asked myself a similar question today, "do you really care about your health or not?". And yes, I really care. I've missed your blog. I don't want to be MIA anymore.
ReplyDeleteYou are probably right. It was probably the carbs that gave you the extra energy.
ReplyDeleteSometimes you just need to eat something "good" (i.e. tasty). I'm glad you are feeling better...a sandwich is no sin.
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear your fog is lifting and a great question for all of us to ask ourselves. Do we really want to lose weight? And if the answer is yes, then we really do need to make the right choices and do the work involved.
ReplyDeletehave a great weekend
It is so easy to loose sight, especially in the fog. Hope you get your energy back.
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