This afternoon I asked myself "do you really care if you lose weight, or not?"
I paused and then answered "yes, I really care and I really want to lose more weight." I've worked hard at making changes and I don't want to let a little chocolate cake get the best of me (or the worst of me depending on how you look at it). I've been liking that my pants are looser and my bra is slipping up in the back.
I did have a turkey and Swiss cheese on crescent today for lunch. For most that's not a bad thing but I try to stay away from white breads. I really wanted it so rather than have my body throw another tantrum, I gave in.
This program that I've been trying out has me eating very little calories day to day. My energy level for the last few days has been lacking and riding my bike has felt like a chore. The ride today was great. I felt re-charged and full of energy. I rode for 45 minutes and average speed was 10.9 mph. Of course when I got off the bike, I felt the pain in my thighs but during the ride it felt great. Maybe the sandwich was what I needed to give me a boost.
Anyway, I'm feeling like the fog is lifting and I see my goal again. The important thing is that this time I didn't hate myself or feel like a failure. I felt like a person who faced a tough time and got over it.
Have a great evening and love the one your with, even if it's just you.